insomnia

i was supposed to b in my sweet sweet nap right now,
i know it was kinda late now but just my usual style .
lols .
but ever since last night,
i was having a severe insomnia .
stress wei,
how come ?

i mean,
it wasn't exam period,
but my mind seems don't want to shut down for the don't-know-what reason !
& i really can't make myself fall asleep as if i have so much of incomplete thingy that tied me up .
sad,
isn't it ?

i love to sleep,
so much !
i mean i used to love & fall asleep easily as long as my bed is beside me .

unfortunately,
i wasn't felt so since last night,
so many scenes in my daily life was flipping & flashing in my head & i'm having this serious headache .

is it caused by the hot weather ?
no,
last night was so cold in my home.
second,
i thought was the tutorial presentation this morning that freaks me out,
but it proved that the result is significantly negative,
means it was not caused by that,
why then ?

God,
help me !

i want to fall asleep as my eyes is super duper tired & pain & want to sleep yet my mind don't let it do so .

why m i have so much to think of ?
just let me shut down my mind for 15 minutes is more than enough,
as i have so much to do now,
i mean,
assignments, tutorials, & presentations are coming up.
soon it will be my mid-trimester test in 3 weeks time & yet i have no preparation at all .
ok,
i admit,
girls usually get this 'over-thinking' sickness on a time-to-time basis yyea,
perhaps & i did .

lack of sleeps really makes me feel like out-of-time,
m i dying like so soon ?
lols,
kiddin,
i know i'm not but it's tiring & stressing & not pleasant at all .
*sob*

& one more vital thing,
i found out that i miss you so so so much my beloved darling boy,
only one day u r off from me but i feel like its decades & decades & this feelings are killing me seriously!
h e l p !
i really can't imagine if you are going back to Penang soon & may be overseas later,
OMG!
i'll go mad,
will i ?
don't,
please don't,
i want to live a happy life with you still.
i want to be a little bit more positive,
just a lil bit more will be enough,
& relax to make me fall asleep .
or just i can't be without you on my side darl,
sniff sniff .

anyway,
loves this picture like we took it decades ago during our Langkawi trip huh .
not my favorite but i know its yours so i just love it,
your smiles delights me always,
you do !
*make it always, always smile cz of me ok darl?*
feeling betta when i see your smile,
& you are the reason !

ignore my stupid face,
lols.

love you darl
<3